I don't believe this... I just checked my NUS email account...

Apparently A*Star is now offering post-graduate scholarships in... READ THIS... Veterinary Sciences.

I'm flabbergasted. Well of course the first thing that came to my mind was "YIPPEEE!". But then what? Scholarship? Me?! Hello.... At the rate I'm going, it'll be a God-given miracle if I should get to do honours at all... But there's the CHANCE. A POSSIBLITY. That's what got me excited. My heart really skipped a beat when I read that email.

But then what? How uncanny it was that just last night I was talking to an ex-relief teacher (hailing all the way back from my sec 2 days) about my childhood aspiration to be a vet... the dream that kinda died as my academic route cemented itself as a result of convenience and little other choice. What else could I have chosen to major in NUS? Physics and Engineering were definitely out. So's Math. As together with an Arts degree. I'd kill myself writing those essays first. I'm just not that sort. Business? Building and Real Estate? Yuck. So maybe that left Dentistry (which wouldn't take in anyone with a C6 in Chinese) or Architecture (interesting but didn't occur to me earlier, and I probably wouldn't have had the guts to commit myself) So a major in Life Sciences it was. An area of study that was pretty close and relevant to my field of interest (or so I thought). They decieved me of course. DNA. Protein. DNA. Cells. More DNA. Genes. Lots more DNA. Bah. But I'm not complaining about that. No. That's not the focus of this blog entry, neither do I wish to make it an issue anymore.

So that email got me thinking. Let's say I give my all and eventually graduate with grades that would qualify me for that post-grad scholarship. But after 15 odd years of dreaming and just plain talk, is a veterinary vocation what I really want? Can I see myself working under bond, not as a true-blue vet (this is a scholarship offered by a biomedical-based board.) but as.... urm... (frankly i've no idea what's the bond's job scope) And afterwhich... what? It's a very specialised field. Could I be possibly tying myself down if I were to pursue this dream? Shutting myself out from any future callings in life? I've only this one life on earth. Like the lyrics to Mukala's Regret (i'll post that up later...), it's just a little regret. Right? Sigh. I don't even know what I'm going to do after I graduate with a BSc. Really. I don't. The government and every other person whom I talk to can wax lyrical about the "bright future and prospects in Life Sciences" but I don't care one bit. What lies ahead in the "bright future and prospects" of Life Sciences just doesn't interest me. Man... How good the timing. Starting my second year of uni in just a few days time and circumstances have got me questioning once again about my post-grad plans. *wry smile*