... has left me feeling both physically and emotionally sick to the core. Whatever that was spat out has now led me to recognise that (on my part) it was never totally altruistic to begin with.

So where do I go from here?

A change in perspective and approach henceforth, for one. But where has God been in the entire equation of it all? This epipha-.. No... That wouldn't be the right term to use in this context... This... waking up to my senses... has left me feeling more lost than ever. Add that to the mountain of pride that desperately needs dealing with.

Epiphany? I'm waiting for it.